What's the most difficult thing you've forgiven?

Here's a list of what and who I have forgiven:

I've forgiven friends that let me down even when I was always there for them.

I was locked out of my house and my friend wouldn't come to help me even though I answered a call from her at 3am and picked her up in Canada so she could get home.

I always listened to my best friend and when I had a problem she went into isolation for 3 months and wouldn't talk to me. And when she came back out of isolation she said it was up to me if I wanted to be friends again or not.

I forgave my mom for never being there for me. For making me take care of her at the age of 4 years old when she was abusing drugs and alcohol and almost died from two drug overdoses and I had to take care of the house and all of the chores rather than plan with friends on a daily basis.

I forgave my ex-husband for pulling the rug from under my feet and sneakily taking my kids from me.

I forgave my ex for lying to everyone in Genesee county.

I forgave my ex for trying to punish me because he didn't feel that I loved him.

I forgave my ex-mother-in-law for kidnapping the children for two weeks before the kids were in my ex-husbands care.

I forgave the police for not doing anything about the kidnapping because they were lifelong friends with my ex-husbands family.

I forgave my father for not being in my life.

I forgave my father for trying to put me in prison for 50 years because of a con that he was trying to pull and to get myself out I had to talk to authorities to protect my rights.

I forgive my father for being a con man.

I forgive my stepfather for ignoring my existance and wanting nothing to do with me because he's a hermit.

I forgive my mother for taking my ex-husband's side even though she admits he is wrong.

But, most importantly, I forgive myself.